Take_A_Look!
by WendyMae

Did you ever consider the things that have settled into your room, whether that be a bedroom or any room in your house, which you have held on to or collected over the years? Well, I was encouraged by the Lord and those around me in the body of believers to do this very thing. For me it was my bedroom where I spend most of my time in my house, because all of the things that I have are in that one room. This can cause some serious build-up of collected and saved things over 22 years. Yet the Lord in His awesome faithfulness will not leave us to our own misdirected paths and choices. He redeems the years that the locusts have eaten (Joel 2:25).

For a number of days before I seriously looked at the things in my bedroom the Lord was laying some things on my heart and showing me some areas that looked out of place. About thirty-five different collected miniature smurfs were standing up on a shelf on my wall. They were very cute to look at, but held a deeper message that I was unaware of at the time. The Lord made me more and more uncomfortable every time that I looked at them, and it got to the point when I realized that these smurfs were just like trolls or demons in a hidden and beautified form. I had always detested trolls that many people bought as toys or collectables, but I never before had made the connection to the smurfs. As I looked at the different characters they represented my eyes began to open to the hidden messages they each portrayed. Lazy, the name for one of the characters, didn't like doing anything but lay around all day and sleep; Vanity, speaks of his name in pride and arrogance; Papa smurf was a magician or a warlock, but as I used to look at it, he was a “good” guy; another figure represented complaining and grumpiness at everything and everyone; many others were representing some of the things that dominate the world like, sports, gossip, money and other recreational things. They were at first so cute and innocent, but came to be, what their true nature was, evil and deceptive, prone to plant negative messages to those who enjoyed them.

The time came for me to go through my room and I removed these things and a few other things that I felt didn’t belong anymore. Yet, there was one thing that I wasn’t really sure about so I let it stay and said to the Lord, “If this doesn't belong I trust you to show me what to do with it. For now I will wait upon your answer.” So my clowns sat propped up in my room with their painted faces, baggy clothes, bushy hair, and big feet.

I’m not sure how much time passed, because time wasn’t the answer, I just waited upon Jesus to respond to my heart. Then I felt that He wanted me to look up a few things about these clowns to see what it was that made me ask the question about them in the first place. Yet, this was different from how I made the decision about the other things. With the smurfs it was just a simple conviction in my heart that told me these things didn’t belong. But, I had to be open and listen to the Lord in each and every unique way He chose to speak to me in order to clean, purify, and dedicate my room to Jesus. What I found, starting with a dictionary definition, was an answer to a prayer. It settled the questions in my soul, do I keep them or get rid of them, and opened the way to His path of righteousness.
 
The definition alone made me curious as to what else I could find. It read, “Clown – a performer (as in a circus) who entertains by grotesque appearance and actions. (grotesque-repulsive and distorted)”. The meaning no longer sounded as funny as I thought it did! So I continued to look up words that the Lord put on my heart to associate with clowns and what I thought they were or represented, in both the dictionary and the Bible. From these words I found other words that continued to surprise me just as the definition itself did. So,I would like to share with you what I found as the Lord directed me in many different areas from the word and character of a clown.
 
Starting with a clowns large feet or shoes, I found out they were called clodhoppers, something that would seem far from a deceptive or bad thing to have. The word clodhoppers means an additional thing than the shoes themselves. It is associated with, one who is clumsy and in seclusion, with a lack of sophistication and cultivation. Someone in seclusion is someone who lives his life away from others, away from communication, and away from fellowship and confession. In other words, it is someone who is not in the Light but who lives in and dwells in darkness. Even more than that is the fact that he disassociate himself with any kind of wisdom, whether that be worldly or spiritual wisdom, and become his own person and means of surviving. This type of person is usually not looked at with appreciation or respect, but rather is looked at with scorn because he does all things on his own and in his own arrogance. Proverbs 15:5 says, “A fool rejects his father’s discipline, But he who regards reproof is prudent,” or wise.The word fool stuck in my heart as the main word to focus on while I looked up things about clowns. Ass, madman, and jester, were all under the definition or synonyms from the definition, and to them I added fool. In the Bible I found many scriptures that put fools down and lift up those who stand for righteousness: “The fool has said in his heart, ‘There is no God’...” (Psalm 53:1)! This scripture shocked me even more than the definition of the word clown and I started to understand why I wasn’t as comfortable with them as I thought I was all along. I certainly didn’t want to be in the company of anyone who would say there is no God! For Jesus is King of Kings and Lord of Lords, there is no other.

As I continued, Proverbs opened up with many insightful pieces of wisdom expanding my understanding. “The way of a fool is right in his own eyes, But a wise man is he who listens to counsel.” (Proverbs 12:15) The fool has no direct path, only what he feels is right in his own head; listens to no advise from others, but lives selfishly for himself. I need the Lord’s wisdom and the advise from a multitude of counselors (Proverbs 24:6). Then I found out that, “A fool always loses his temper...” (Proverbs 29:11) and I don’t want to get mixed up in this. If you ask the Lord to search your heart and renew your mind of the things that are not of His character, then you don’t want to clutter your mind with those things or your room, with the very things you are trying to overcome.
 
Even further into my search I was lead to a topic that so dominates and fills our society: gossip. I found amongst the definitions that a clown is also one who meddles, deceives, and gossips. Proverbs continued with, “A fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his own mind,” (18:2). In this case there is great danger, for what comes out your mouth is from the heart, and if what is in your heart is your own wisdom and understanding, believing it can hurt yourself as well as others. The wisdom of Proverbs also says, “Do not speak in the hearing of a fool, For he will despise the wisdom of your words”(23:9). He will twist them into something else that suites himself. Having these clowns sitting in my room while I work and fellowship before the Lord now felt like I had spies in my room who would twist all the truth and discernment that the Lord spoke to me. If this was the case then I didn’t want anything coming between me and Jesus. Truth and direction being one of the things that I seek from the Lord, I don’t want to be like “the fool who walks in darkness.”(Ecclesiastes 2:14) I want to walk in the Light of His Son.

Again amongst the assortment of words and definitions I found that clowns are also connected with “one who engages in casual sexual relations.” The marriage bed is called to be “held in honor among all,” and “undefiled; for fornicators and adulterers God will judge,” (Hebrews 13:4). Our sexuality is a gift from God to a marriage and not something to casually sustain our fleshly and selfish appetite. It is amazing how subtle the deception of the enemy is in the character of the clown until you see his whole scheme and desire behind the simple character. This is the case in many other areas as well, so I have been learning to keep my eyes open and my ears
listening to the Father's wisdom.

The more I continued to look into things the more disgusted I became with clowns in all forms. I found them out to waste time, waste away. The game Tiddly Winks came to my mind. Clowns, fools, have nothing better to do, so they indulge themselves in wasting time and doing things that will not edify the soul. Isaiah says, “For a fool speaks nonsense, And his heart inclines toward wickedness, To practice ungodliness and to speak error against the Lord, To keep the hungry person unsatisfied, And to withhold drink from the thirsty,” (32:6). I thought that this scripture summed up what happens when you are wasting away and tearing down others in the process. In essence a “...fool folds his hands and consumes his own flesh,” (Ecclesiastes 4:5). In both these examples from scripture it clearly states that fools live for themselves and care nothing about people other than themselves. They are self-centered and serve only themselves! Yet they are getting nowhere and are finding no true self-satisfaction in life.

Out of many of the things I have already shared with you about clowns I also found, under the definition, that they open themselves up to be an exhibit for others–a very dangerous place to put yourself no matter who you are and how you feel about people. In this I saw how susceptible they are to the enemy, through rejection and the lack of self esteem and security, because fools can do as they please when they have no shields up. I personally have to be on guard against rejection and I don't want anything that would encourage it in any way to be near me or in my room.

The Lord was also faithful to show me the depressiveness of the clown spirit and actions that are portrayed in the many faces that they wear on stage and off stage. Clowns put on an act and a mask that makes them look funny or happy, when they are really just covering up the sadness that is in their hearts. Unfortunately, people will makes fools of themselves to gain attention or to gain approval from others when they are suffering from rejection. Or they will coil back and seclude themselves totally, which I have already mentioned near thebeginning of this search. They also may turn to others who are in the same boat as themselves or who have similar weak-nesses and point out and rub the wounds, hurts and sorrows others have. In any case, it is a false appearance or face.

After having done the initial search of the definitions and scriptures from the Bible, a couple of days later the Lord gave me a clear word to associate with clowns: schizophrenia. It is as if clowns are trying to hide what's truly in their hearts by wearing a happy mask to cover up the sadness there, or by wearing a sad mask to draw more attention or self pity upon themselves. It is all false happiness or appearance and not a true representation of what is in their hearts. They are trying to be another person altogether, jumping from one mask to another.

I have always remembered something said by a brother, “Happiness is based on happenings, but Joy is based on Jesus!” Without Him our joy cannot be complete. No matter how hard we try to make our self happy, we will never experience true Joy in Jesus, until He takes care of the hurts deep within and replaces them with Love! So through all these things my questions were answered and I found out that it was wise to, “Leave the presence of a fool, Or you will not discern words of knowledge,” (Proverbs 14:7). I need His wisdom, so I heard this and all that the Lord showed me as a strong word to get rid of the clowns in my room. I was then willing to let them go with no attachments, because I wanted life to come out of even the smallest things, no matter what they may be. For “That which you sow does not come to life unless it dies,” (1 Corinthians 15:36), and in order to reap that which is spirit you have to sow to the spirit.

One thing that I always worried about when getting rid of things was how those who gave the things to me would handle it if I threw them out, even though it was me who wanted it all along in the first place. Then one morning I read my Oswald Chambers devotional, My Utmost For His Highest, and it was very timely in accordance with what I had been seeking the Lord about. It reminded of something that I have always held on to in following the Lord, because I have read it before in the past. The title of the day was, “What My Obedience To God Costs Other People.” Chambers writes, “We can disobey God if we choose, and it will bring immediate relief to the situation, but it will grieve our Lord. If, however, we obey God, He will care for those who have suffered the consequences of our obedience. We must simply obey and leave all the consequences with Him.” I know that when we don’t obey it doesn’t bring immediate relief, because it only adds to the burden of sin. Yet, I feel that Chambers is speaking about obedience in this way: the more we ignore the problem the more it goes into the sub-conscience of our hearts and we forget about it; but the Lord doesn’t forget because He cares for us and wants us free. I want to obey the Lord at all costs and not only purify my heart for Him, but also my room. So, the message from Chambers yet again brought peace to my heart as I chose to give up the clowns in my room and trust the consequences into His hands.

I now truly believe that it was a deceiving and subtle trick that the enemy twisted into this cute and colorful toy and/or game through the image of the clowns. The Lord is however, just and merciful to His children and never leaves them on a path that is not His own. In His faithfulness He has helped me to cleanse my room and dedicate it into His arms. Now I can peacefully and clearly commune with Jesus and hear His voice with no deceptions interfering.



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